After talking to some people I've come to the conclusion that I need to take a break from the game, I'm just not in the headspace to enjoy much anymore, especially cs, I will still organise the GG server league teams and fill in if necessary but that will be about the last of my dtk interaction as an admin, despite only being admin for about a month I loved every moment of it, thanks and apologies to Envy_Black for being so supportive through this and my apologies to everybody who helped me become admin, I may be back again one day but for now this is goodbye. <3 all of you